I Try So Hard.

Im Trying.

The Lord knows im trying.

To be good, and do the best I can-

Not to break the Rules.

Or our rules.

On my knees,

Im trying.

But like yesterday,

I was running away from the place I call home.

Fighting, screaming, and crying,

is what I seem to know nowadays.

My smiles and laughs; never seem to last.

They fade away.

My dreams, have pieces of heaven in them.

But never fail-to show me what Ive lost/

The promises that have been broken;

When I wake Up.

I am Trying so hard.

Not to call them,

not to talk to them.

But Lord knows How Hard it is.

Im Strong-

But whos THIS strong?!?

Im Trying...

But I dont want to Keep working so hard to smile.

Work to be happy.

What makes me happy always leaves.

Never lasts.

Home is Broken to my vision-

or is my lens cracked?

Crack?

Even drugs is startin to sound nice to my bleeding ears.

Bleed?

No. No more cuttin.

My scars remind me.

Im strong.

Im on my knees-

But drugs Ive never touched

&Scars I will not restart.

I Try So Hard-

But I Want Them Right Now....

Soo Bad....

Come Back to me....

Please.

And Save me.