Irrational...

Irrational,

Quick Thinking,

[too] Fast Moving,

Irrational,

[semi-] levelheaded,

Crazy,

Girl who always seem to move quicker than she can think.

Always saying what she doesn't mean.

Irrational and Explosive.

Irrational and Constantly Confused.

Constantly guilty and Constantly paying,

for things I always do,

Never learn, but always pay.

Apologizing, and pleading.

A girl who never knows when to stop,

I'm Sorry,

I'm Irrational.

How can You...

How can you just enter back in my life,
and expect me to be ok?
How can you just play with someones heart, and toy wit their soul,
and expect them to be fine?
How can you, just do that for a living,
and not expect that people will get mad or sad?
How?!?!?
How can you do that?
How can you be like that, thought you were smarter HA!
Guess not,
thought you ACTUALLY knew how to make it through, but you know nothing...
Because then you would've....you wouldn't be how you are....were?
Just, How could you?

Tear me out,

tear me apart.

Crashing,

crush me.

Burning,

put me out.

Dying,

finish the job...

.

Save me,

no, kill me.

You'll Miss me When Im Gone...

You'll Miss me When Im Gone...

When theres no longer anyone there-

To Hold your Hand and Guide you.

When theres no one there-

to show how, tell you why and explain how so.

When theres no me to-

to hold your head up, dry your tears, grab your hand, and comfort you.

No me to-

Make you smile, make you laugh at life and give you courage to take the dive.

Youll ALL Miss Me when-

...

Im Not There.

No smile, waiting for you when you turn.

No voice, there shouting your name or calling to you.

No hi, to greet you.

No One, there to call you just to talk.

No wave, to say goodbye.

No...Me.

You'll Miss Me when Im Gone...

Youll miss me...

When there's,

no me.

I Dont Know...

I'm sorry,

I don't know what I'm saying anymore.

I'm rambling,

from lack of sleep.

I'm gazing cold,

from fatigue.

I'm being stupid,

doing stupid things,

from lack of-

love...

I ramble, yes.

But I don't lie.

Even now,

as I lose my mind-

I'm not lying.

I just...Don't Know.

Just unsure of the truth,

and tend to mix Reality with My Fariyworld-

That no longer protects me...

But, I Don't Know...

Just, let me-

I guess?

Die in Peace?

I believe.

*tear*

Yeah, just...let me die.

Dont Wake Me, Let Me R.I.P. ...

Bored,

Tired,

Confused,

Just Flat Out-

TIRED!

With Life.

...

What's left?

No You...

No them...

No...it?

No Best Friend...

No One

Nothing...

So Tired, so Alone...

Please just let me rest my head...

Just...for a little....

And if I don't wake....Please don't shake me....

If I die, as I lie there,

Peacefully,

Quietly,

Don't Wake me, let me live in Paradise

Away from this Hell-

This Blowtorch

and just...let me....[sleep on.... let me....]

R.I.P.

Blind Bliss

I look up to you,

I waited at your feet,

saw the light through you,

Like a puppy, needed you.

But you gave me False Hope,

a Blind Bliss.

You made me think that I was YOUR world,

when truly...I was nothing

,but another grain of sand in your playground.

Easily chosen,

Easily used,

Easily tossed aside...

I blindly followed you,

and would of continued had you not slipped up and messed up in your little game.

I found the flaw now I use it against you,

Caught You,

You Misused me-

And I mistrusted.

But Not anymore,

NO MAS!

I wake from my dream,

back to a painful truth,

out of a blind bliss...

PRESS :PLAY: ???

:PAUSE ll:

PRESS

:PLAY:

.

Rewind, Reverse

Every verse that I played

Parlayed,

I bet it all,

(I'D bet it all,) for the good life

but I NEVER got it...

I was conned,

ripped off,

but now I'm atoned,

repayed,

But I cant accept,

Dont know how,

[I] Know the world only of-

NO's!

And F#%@ YOU's!

Compassion and a ration,

of how life,

how people,

shoulda, coulda, been, but isnt

WHY?

Whats with yesterdays society being corrected in todays?!

Whatta bout the corrupt?!

The Stained and Scarred?!

Whatta bout 'em?!?!?

Does Your 'new' society have a cure for them?

You know what...I was better off Frozen~

Just Leave Me Lost n'

PRESS

.

:PAUSE ll:

Talk a lot shit,
Say a lot of stuff.
C'mon, I know, dont take me for a fool, I aint no bull-
But, hey I keep it real, all deals 'bove the counter, No tricks-
that you can see at least.
But hell, I'll keep strong, you give me reason to respect you,
you best belive that you'll get the A+ treatment,
I do the best, for those who I consider amigos.
No nose, but head's another thing...dont ask.
Too Many Questions, might just ruin ur vision.
I Ain't stupid, Im here, I cant steer my own life.
But I SURE AS HELL! WONT LET OTHERS ONTO THE SAME
SHITHOLE
ROAD AS ME!
SO STEER CLEAR!
Cuz IM COMIN THROUGH!

It's Funny...I Know

It's Funny-

How my hearts stopped loving you out of fear...

.

[eek! Love is such a strong word...]

.

Fear...of what I KNOW, and you haven't said.

UGH!!!!

???

wtf!!!

Why I Laughed...

hehe the reason I laughed...

hehe =D is because...

There's More than Meets the Eye...

and only my eyes know what yours haven't met.

Invitation Needed:

Want One?

But would you be ready??? *raised eyebrow*

NEW YEARS RESOLUTION!

Live Up To My Name (and raise the bar so i got more to live up to)-

And...

HAVE A GOOD YEAR

=D =D =D

(gold and silver new years colors are ugly lol)