How do I say it?!??

What to do, what to do-
When the heart is split in two.
She says, "Gaby I love you."
And I always say, "Baby I love you too."
But how do I let you know that my hearts else where, hiding deep inside me.
I dont wanna give it away, I wanna live.
Before I give away this key.
But dont misunderstand, the thought of never hearing your voice again is something I cant stand.
The vision of the tears, you once let me hear, breaks me down.
I wanna do good by you, but trust me when I say, you really dont understand.
You dont know how I die inside, when I cant hold you at night.
I just cant lie to you, or me.
And this does have somethin to do with her, but its mainly bout me.
Your the sweetest, kindest, greatest person to ever love me.
And oh how I wish we could be!
But right now, we cant, and I hope one day we maybe could?
You might hate me after I say this, but trust me....your better off without me.
You deserve the best, and even though you say it's me.
Im telling you, it's not.
So baby please be strong, hate me if it helps you, but try and see.
I love you....
Now if only I could tell her this.....

You remind me, of me. So blind fighting for a love, that can not be. My crazy little honey bee.You have no clue how much you mean to me.I think, I could really love thee

The truth is...right now....I want nothing more than to be in your arms tonight.....even though i wish youd die. I hate that i still love you with all my life!

I'll never let it show......you will never know......just how much this hurts....Every. Single. Day...

Oh how I hate you, words could not describe the fire of hate I feel inside.
How every fiber of my being burns when I think of you.
How ever part of me shakes with pain, at the mere mention of your name.
How..you drive me insane! Without even being here.....
I cry! I cry inside!! Every day I must carry that part of me that died....the day you said those things......
Every day I trudge with a part of me missing, a part so deep, I feel that at times I may just collapse from the inside out, without that little part of me.....
I am incomplete.
And you have the rest of me...
If I say "just keep it!" Will you let me be?
Will you no longer haunt my dreams??
I dont even want to be complete, at this point, all I want, is peace of mind, and peace of heart.
For my soul to troll no more.
Just let me erase!! Please oh God let me forget!!!
Every stupid part of you, every stupid kiss we shared, every stupid love note I wrote, every stupid lie you told, every single stupid memory we created, especially the ones that we had planned....for our future.
Let me forget them! Every last damn word!!!
Erase them! Burn them all!!.....
Oh God.....please burn them all.......

I see your face, in my mind. I see your face, all the time. I see your face, I see your face- You poor twisted Disgrace.

Your In Love with a Dream, so Dont be Decieved.

Sometimes I hope that I'll lose my mind, so that I can live in this silly world of mine and just forget time.

Thank you...for setting me free. =)