Weak Moment

My heart still beats for you.
At night my mind still thinks of you.
When I dream, its you I end up with.
Ive no shame, to express my fondness.
No fear, to stop me from letting you know the few moments I am weak and I long for your embrace once more.
At times I am afraid, that if you asked me back, I would go.
I only fear my love for you.
I was once told that "love gives the same effects as drugs do to the mind and body"
"and when someone goes through withdrawal they are actually experiencing the same effects as someone who did drugs"
Love is strong. Love is powerful. Love can overwhelm the strongest.
I thought I was strong once. I thought I was brave.
But love put me to the test< love made me crawl.
It stripped me of my pride. Made me naked and bear.
Id give it all to you, at times I think to myself, if it meant I'd hold you again.
I know I musnt, I know yes its bad.
But this thing we call Love. Knows no limits in its pursuit to consume its victims.
I wish I could outrun, destroy it, kill it, fight it.
But I finally found my match. And it's not you.
Its this heart of mine that cries for you.
It hurts at times. Bleeds your name, tattoos it across my mind. So I see your face, and smile. I hear your laugh and I go wild.
Like an animal in a cage. Tortured to no end. I go insane sometimes. But yet I still try. To hide it all inside. Because a really pretty girl, asked me to.
She doesnt see how I die inside. But for her Id climb a mountain side. Its love, that poison has infected my mind.
But shh, dont ever tell, that if there ever was a cure, I would never take it. For loving her, was and is, the greatest.
So I'll straighten my legs, and stand back up. Ill silence my heart and calm my soul. But without her, it will always be something near the end of me.
Yes love has got me. The only thing to have brought me to my knees. But I'll try not to surrender to thee. But oh how my heart aches in times like these...But it'll pass, it'll stop.
But without her, it'll never heal.
My heart still beats for you, at night my mind still thinks of you....And no chain could ever hold back my heart, this love drug, is just too strong.

Words.

Dont underestimate the power of word.
Every unspoken word could sting like a thousand knives, and any spoken world could take just as many lives.
Its hard to see how a few words could do anything. But words have changed nations.
What if I told you mine were meant to change a planet?
I believe words could prevent an apocalypse.
And I also believe that ours is upon on us.
Be the change you wanna be, you dont have a lifetime, you have every second of now.
Make it count, live out of anger, away from pain. Be good and kind to those who hurt you.
If you live to hurt those who hurt you, your just like them.....It does no good to be like the bad of the ones you look down at. Look up and keep walking.
Because in the end all that will matter is you, and no one else.
No one elses judgment or actions will determine your fate, only yours will.
So be who you want to be now, because it all adds up.
Cmon, you be the pad and Ill be the paper, lets write an ending for this world to look up at and follow, and become the world of peace we all dream of.
Lets be the best us we can be...

“A women’s heart is as deep as the ocean,” it’s perilous and full of secrets. It’s a wonder what we keep locked away, in the crevices of our hearts and minds…

There is no journey left untouched by the mystique of life. No heart unchanged by the tinge of love. There are no lips untouched by the hint of joy. There is no one left unturned by the power of emotion.

Nothing in this life is worth having, if you do not feel passion for it. A need, a want, a ‘must have’ feeling for whatever it is you treasure most, or hold dearest. A want….So strong nothing can stand in the path between you and it.

Love is that passion for me. Love burns me free. Sets me alit amongst the world, to wander in joyous confusion, in utter disillusion. Love melts all pain away, and at other times it scathes the worst scars in its way…

But one must never quit. There is no end to the attainment of happiness, until complete utter delusional joy is attained. Happiness so great you drown in it. That is true joy. And it is eternal.

The path to that joy is long, and tiresome. Lonely and almost abandoned. A true warriors’ path. But with a god’s reward.

A lil Lesson:

Theres something to be said about the quiet and smart. As your on loud Ima sit back and do my thing. It not up to you to judge who I should be, none of you are better off. So go on, rant and bant.
But dont expect anything from me. Im smile and walk away. And then one day, Im blow you away when I say "look mom, Im the president!"

Quite means theres more than meets the eye.
If you say everything on your mind then youve got no substance.
If all you do is talk and never listen, your on your way to quick grave, with ignorance as you crime.
Cmon world listen up!
Be slow to judge, quick to listen, and somewhere in between is where you should be doin all your thinking.
The mute are the intelligent ones.

There Aint no Rest for the wicked

"There aint no Rest for the wicked. Until we close our eyes for good" - Aint no Rest for the Wicked by Cage the Elephant.

Theres too many good lessons to learn from songs.
ma start a religion where we worship history's famous songs and quotes.
Bless you music, without you I'd be dead.
And yes im kidding bout the worshiping of music. I believe in God,
but music is definitely one my gospels.

Tell me how i win your heart? Id buy the moon if itd make you mine.

One thing I ask of thee...

Wheres thine lips, whose sweet curves have caressed mine so often?
Wheres thine arms, whose embrace have cradled me so warmly?
Wheres thine love, of which I coveted so closely?
I ask of thee only one thing-
Let me keep mine fond memories of you, intact as I have them now?
I only wish to see thee in the warm light I have given you, so perfect, so warm.
Will thee allow such a pleasure for one such as me?

Checkin In:

Well wow it has been a while since I have checked into my blog. lol. Hello world!!! Much and nothing has changed since my depressive messages of long ago.
Changes: Im a year older now
i have graduated
i am moving onto college
i am leaving for a month longest ive ever been away from home or from my family.
And im still with my "lovely" gf
mamy has cancer....
Things that havent changed:
lifes still hard
still have no friends cept one
and still fighting with the gf

UPDATE!

I havent been on in forver because ive been posting all of my poems on my myspace blog. More people read them there. But I have not forgotten about my cherised blog!

So let me tell you people life has been good lately!

Remember that gurl that Ive been writting about for forever- well I finally got her people! and damn happy! this is our 3rd month on the 23rd. But it was totally not what I expected. nut more details on tis later ok. im in class right now and this period is about to end.

Till later, Ciao~Gaby

Well...Update!

So lets see up to now. Me and my so called ex.
Fought, cried, yelled, loved, and hurt.
Like no bodys said bye more than we have lol.
But we just had break up sex. Dat was nice.
And ive been giving myself a casanova rating.
lets just say it went up to 56% after las fri. Hehe ^_^
Sorry gatta boast she was a hard gurl to please.
But now im der first! lol.
But yea der my first too.
But like idk, i guess after dat im good u kno.
Jus kinda here.
Doin my field hockey practice, 3rd week.
And ITS HELLA HOT!!!!!!!!!
waiting for it to die down.
Start skool next tuesday, UGH!!!!
and doing link crew today, tomorrow, and wed.
its where the older classmen help the incoming freshmen we make them more comftorable and show them around and stuff.
Its cool. =)
But der hard to manage. Freshmen *rolls eyes*
Ima senior now btw.
Yup yup.
Soooooo ready to graduate but very scared.!!!!!!
*scared puppy whimper face*
lol. but yea. dont know what else to say.
Oh oh!!! bout da Justin situation, well i finally talked to him and told him i couldnt date him.
That im not ready to date anyone.
And i love him as afriedn ALMOST a brother...but not really. lol.
Were just so tight, and idk.
But things have been A LOT better between us we still hang out not as much but still enough and talk aaaaall da time lol.
But were just friends.
But who knows what the future brings you kno.
But for the time being im content not trying to figure it out.
I kno for one once im not ganna try.
I got enough personal/spiritual/mental and even phisical things to take care of now.
So untill da next time. Ta Ta ^_^
oh i mean CIAO!